4dp5dt and trying to relax

TGIF my friends!

Even though I had off Monday and worked from home Tuesday, this week has still dragged by!

First, I have not succumb to becoming a POAS addict yet. Though the box of test strips did arrive in the mail during the week and are waiting on the bathroom counter for me to cave in and peeeee.
I just figured it's still a bit early. Maybe by Sunday (6dp5dt), we'll see if I even remember when I first wake up. Cuz really, who's even REALLY awake and thinking "i have to get a cup to collect my piss"... well, maybe some of you... hehehe...

Second, the mind f*ck that is the "2ww" has returned. Did I feel something? Did I not? Was that a twinge, pinch, cramp, gas bubble, alien probe, my overactive imagination? Speaking of gas bubbles... holy geez. I'm not sure if its dancing babies implanting, side effects of PIO/delestrogen or the fact that i've been drinking fruit smoothies everyday since transfer that has my insides filling up with air. But holy geez. Cropdusting at work is NOT smexy. (i kid, i kid! and yes, i used a honey boo boo word. guilty pleasure, i LOVE that show).

word!

Obviously, we're hoping it was the FIRST of those options. Cuz come on, we REALLY need some dancing babies in my belly!

Flashback Friday: Ally McBeal!

Other than that, i get pretty crampy every night around 9:30-10... again, not sure if that's a side effect of all the PIO i've been shooting into my backside, but i'm trying to believe its the above happening.

4 more days of torture and then we'll know.

Ooga Chaka...

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The One Where I Forgot to Blog

So i know you have all been sitting around dying to know when the heck my transfer is! Life has been a bit hectic, right now the IF (infertility) Journey is turning into the IF Journey (like, literally IF i ever have any time for anything, it will be a miracle!)

But, so as not to keep you lovely ladies in suspense, our transfer is scheduled for Monday, 3/3. Monday's weather is supposed to be super snowy (big f'ing surprise there) and messy. Awesome sauce. So all i can hope is that we (and the dr and nurses) can still make it there with no weather-related issues. I've never been so glad to have a 4 wheel drive vehicle (even though that bastard only gets 12mpg).

So yes, last night I continued my shots. Tuesdays and Fridays its double torture since i have to do both the delestrogen shot AND the PIO. I won't start complaining about them quite yet... i'll wait til my bum is good and sore to start the bitchfest. And I started the cipro and medrol. And ew, is medrol not the nastiest tasting shizz? Why so bitter Medrol? That taste lingered on my tongue something fierce!

And oh, i had another wonderful side effect from.... which med, i have no idea... was in Target yesterday on my lunch hour, perusing the aisles and suddenly GUSH. right between the damn legs... i swear guys, i thought it was AF, or i peed myself, or my water breaking... and then i thought, "impossible"... once i got back to the office and checked out the sitch down under, i realized it was just CM? i THINK? but regardless, ew. Personally i think it was God's way of telling me to back out of the make up aisle... just say no to beauty products that you don't need Shay...

Anyway, that's about it for me. Other than freaking out about this whole process since this is pretty much our last shot, and even though i have a diagnosis now, what if it DOESN'T work? Oh and I am also worried about the thaw process for our 2 remaining babies, since we lost one last round... Ugh... i think i need cymbalta. LOL

Happy Thursday!
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Nothing new to report...

So far, just chugging along. Delestrogen shot #3 was last night and it's starting to hurt like a biatch... I guess the higher the dosage, the more you're shooting yourself up with. Although it's definitely uncomfortable, it's definitely easier when someone else is doing the jabbing. I basically just close my eyes and brace myself. Though hubby tricked me last night by counting and then jabbing it in on "2" instead of after "3". LOL Not that it matters, I wasn't mad or anything. I find the actual needle to be minimal discomfort, it's more so AFTER once the medication is in the muscle and has to disperse.

Sitting on the heating pad definitely helps though! I'm just trying to keep up a positive attitude and say, "If this will give us our tiny miracle, i would do this a million times over".

So keep on truckin'... it's all we can do.

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sorry this post was so boring today... there's not much to say when you're in the waiting period... hopefully we get a transfer date on Thursday!

Shot thru the Heart...er.. Butt and you're to blame

Baby, you give love, a bad name! Whoo! Just had to finish singing!
Sorry, jersey girl + bon jovi = true love. You know how it goes...

anyhoo. back to update you's (another jersey phrase) on my shot to da booty last night... which turned out...... FINE!

yes, FINE!

Now. Granted. It was ONLY 0.2 cc and it was only my first one. so it could totally get worse from here. but at least i know what to expect and know that i CAN get through this. even if (and god willing) i get preggers (dare i even say that) and i have 3 MONTHS of shots ahead of me... I CAN DO THIS!

the funniest part was my hubby was all gung ho to be a sadist finally able to help me. and then he saw the needle. and saw where he had to put it. not so much in the toosh as in the.... the... muffin top area? is that a good description of where my sharpie drawn targets are?

cue following convo:
him:  how is this possible? i am totally going to hit your BONE if i put this all the way in, in that spot? i thought this was supposed to be your butt?!
me: i don't know. the nurse drew the circles, just aim there. i don't think there's bone!
him: are you positive? i think there's bone, there's gotta be a bone in there.
me: dude, you're freaking me out, just do it. just put it in! they wouldn't tell me to do it there if it wasn't gonna go all the way in!
him: okaaaaaay. [pauses] BUT if i hit bone, you better not get mad at me!

and in went the needle. all the way. and didn't hit any bones.
and it wasn't that bad. did it pinch? sure. was it awful? not really. i think it hurt more once he actually injected the medication. that made me yelp and "ow" a bit.

I had sat on the heating pad for about 10 minutes prior to and 10 minutes post injection. and like i said compared to 1 cc of anything, this was a very minor amount of medication.

but at least the fear of the unknown is over and i know what to expect. it's not all rainbows and unicorns. but it's certainly not AS painful as i was imagining myself screaming and writhing in absolute agony (yup. overdramatic like a jersey housewife flippin tables).

so there ya have it. i survived. numero dos shot on thursday will be given to me by a good friend who is a nurse anesthetist and a fellow IVF/FET-er so she knows the drill.

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Target Practice

Well folks, today is the day...

adding on the delestrogen shots in the ass. 

This is how I feel lately...

Hubby is excited to give me my first one tonight.

Eek. To which when I told him he'd be doing the honors, his excited response made me call him a sadist.

But, apparently he is just excited to be the one I trust to help me out.

Especially because after the very first Ovidrel shot months and months ago, I have not trusted him to come near me with any sharp, pointy objects. LOL.

Even Superbowl Sunday when I cried in the bathroom because I could not get the Ganirelix shot in.

I still wouldn't let him try. Talk about Bipolar Betty.

Ok, do it... Nooo, wait, i'll just try... no you can just do it... Wait... i changed my mind.

Cray cray? Definitely.

Tonight though, I'll have no choice.

Shoot me in the ass hubby. I even had the nurse draw some awesome target areas so he'd know where to stab aim.

Pray for me friends.

It's just the beginning.

Why can't I have the dr that just lets me stick patches all over my body?

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