Sometimes I Get Paranoid...

well, here i am... exactly 5 weeks along today. Still super early, i know. most normal fertile people are just about finding out at this point.

over the weekend and into monday i was pretty much feeling totally normal. no "symptoms", even though the symptoms i was having are mostly from the injectable hormones...

tuesday morning i went in for beta #3... everything was fine, i felt good, felt confident, then went off to work as usual...

for the past two betas they've called me relatively quickly... much earlier than they did when just calling to let me know what dosages of delestrogen/PIO to take... so i was expecting a call around lunchtime.

lunchtime came. lunchtime went. 1pm came and went. 2 pm came and went.
and in came the paranoia.

"maybe the dr is just busier than usual today... OR maybe they lost my bloodwork... OR maybe they forgot to test for Hcg... OR maybe my numbers didn't rise... OR maybe i'm not pregnant anymore and they don't want to tell me the bad news!"

ACK... a girl can seriously drive herself NUTSO (which i totally obviously did).

so by 2:30 i was pretty much convinced it was horrible news #dramaqueen, and my phone rang.

beta #1: 160
beta #2: 562
beta #3: 2232!!!

so the doubling times were perfect and everything is hopefully growing as it should! Phew! Our first ultrasound is Monday so we'll see what's in there!

growing a human is hard work!

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On the Rise

Beta #2 is in, and the numbers have more than doubled. Wahoo. Latest round is 562. So for now this baby(s) is sticking around. So happy and relieved. Beta #3 will be on Tuesday. If all goes well with that, I'll drop from bi-weekly appointments to just weekly ones.

However, in the meantime I've been having an allergic reaction to the PIO. They think it might be the sesame oil, so we're switching to ethyl oleate. Hopefully the giant hive/mosquito bite lookin thing on my backside will go away soon (and stop itching). I feel like Al Bundy walking around scratching my ass all day long.

So, should we take bets on whether we think there are 1 or 2 bambinos in there?

Happy Friday!

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The Post I Never Thought I'd Get to Write...

i.am.pregnant.

  wow, just seeing those words written there are giving me butterflies in my stomach. after 6 months of trying on our own, 9 IUI's, 1 IVF, and 2 FETs, not to mention dozens of tests, hundreds of blood draws, and i don't even want to think about how many injections... it finally worked. 2.5 years and finally a diagnosis of endometriosis. and finally for the very first time in my entire life, the most coveted pretty 2 pink lines i ever saw.

  in all honesty, i started POAS on Saturday (5dp5dt) and saw a very very very light line. i went in and showed hubby and he was like, that's not a line! so i POAS at night and the line was a teeny weeny bit darker. And we started to have a little hope. Sunday, i POAS again, and was disappointed to see BARELY that faint, am i hallucinating line again. By Sunday afternoon, i switched brands of tests. I was using some no name tiny strip sticks i got off amazon that IMO suck.

  i peed on a First Response Early Result test and walked out to play with the dog while i waited the 3 min. in the meantime hubby went in the bathroom, and yells, how long do you have to wait for the test? i go, 3 minutes and it hasn't even been a full minute yet.... he comes out with a giant grin and says well you already have a second very visible line!

the top tests are the ones i got off amazon... the big one is the first response test.

  So i pretty much knew that we had a good shot of being pregnant when i went in for beta this morning. i was just nervous to hear the #s especially since today i'm only 8dp5dt so its a day earlier then they usually test. but since i always go on tuesdays for delestrogen/progesterone levels, they said they could do it one day early, but not to be alarmed if my #s were a bit low. which, it was 160 today. i have no idea if that's high or low, so i guess we'll see what it is for Beta 2 which is Friday.

we have a long road ahead of us, i know this. but just seeing that second line gives me hope. hope that it really was just the endo keeping me from ever getting pregnant and that we have a shot at having a biological family. #thankyoujesus #bfp

at least 90 more IM shots. bring it on!

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